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Elise is almost 5 weeks old now and I can’t believe how much she’s changed and how much she grows up every day. Physically, she’s gained a lot more weight and is a lot taller now. Her face is thinning out too. My favorite change is that she is so much more alert now. She will sit there and just gaze into my eyes forever, and if I move, her eyes will follow my eyes. There’s not really a good way to describe the feeling except that my heart feels like gushing. Thats how I feel when I see this… I can’t help but look at it all day long… It’s been a week and I still look at it every day, throughout the day. She’s adorable. She’s perfect! Thank you Nadine for always taking such great photos of her all the time.

I know – you probably don’t understand what I’m saying and you’re wondering “what the hell is this mushy crap. I want to read about something interesting.” So this is my official response – “shut up.”

So Elise is almost a month old now and it never ceases to amaze me how much I am in love with this little girl. I can’t help but smile every time I look at her. Nadine and I are extremely lucky because I kept expecting to wake up every 2 hours to change her diapers or feed her, but that only lasted her first week. After that, it has been every 3-4 hours. Lately she’s been sleeping 5+ hours. To make things even better, she doesn’t ever cry for no reason – it’s always a diaper, she’s hungry, or she wants her pacifier. You’ve got a 1 in 3 shot at figuring out why she’s crying and if you know her schedule, you have a really good shot at figuring it out. How uncommon is this? I’ve never heard of such a well behaved baby in my life. Everything about her just seems so wonderful and perfect that I don’t know why Nadine and I have been so blessed. Elise has really been a gift from God and I don’t know what we did to deserve such a wonderful baby.

I am back at work again. Coming back was hard for me, because I spent my every second for 3 weeks with my newborn baby and I hated being at work not knowing what she was doing or what she looked like at all times. Nadine originally planned on going back to work in May, but she is starting to feel differently now. I wish we could both stay home and focus on her… I think that is how life should be in a perfect world. But it’s not, and we have to make sacrifices in order to survive – even if it means that you can’t spend 24/7 with the most important thing that has ever happened in your entire life.

I think we’re going to have to find a nanny for Elise or a day care that has a program for infants. Either that, or figure out a way that Nadine can work from home! Anybody have any ideas or people/places that you can refer?

Last Sunday, my daughter was born. Welcome to the world, Elise. I love you with all my heart.